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All I want for christmas..

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 16:43:45 GMT

is a happy pill.

from the right doings in life, the right decisions made, and most importantly, the right person.

On this quiet saturday night...

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 17:41:27 GMT

i cant help but wonder..

if everything was worth it.

There will be miracles, when you believe..

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 16:49:47 GMT

for tonight, i smiled again.

with genuine happiness, from the bottom of my heart.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:43:39 GMT

我不要你的承诺, 不要你的永远...

只要你真真切切, 爱我一遍.

Of priorities, facebook addiction, and a revised cuti-cuti 2009

Wed, 27 May 2009 18:45:12 GMT

soooooo, i have been been MIA again. well, not new.

but although i've not been writing much here, i do pop in like...every once in a while, and i noticed something that's been bothering me.

to my dear friends who know the existence of this humble blog of mine, may i ask..

WHO HAS BEEN VISITING/STALKING THIS SITE LIKE 10 TIMES A DAY???? OR MORE???

PLEASE OWN UP!!

I would really like to know who you are.Nothing big but just to kill my curiosity as i hardly let out my blog address to people. in fact, i no longer tell ppl i have a blog wtf. Furthermore, since u've known so much abt me, it's not too much to ask for when all i need to know is who u are, rite?

~*~*~*~

yours truly is soooo addicted to facebook lately and it's CRAZY!! once an almost inactive user, now the second page i open after my yahoo email once i get online is facebook. i dont play the games there, i'm not into it (luckily), but there's just so much to kepoh abt in facebook!! damn!! and to make things worse, my latest addiction: the how well do u know me quiz everyone's doing. it's really damn addictive lol!!!!

it's really amusing what kinda ans ur friends would give u for the questions asked. and it's equally amusing, if not more, to see ur own score/ans when u do quizzes of others! hehehehehe...

so, if u're reading and have me as a friend on fb and haven't already challege urself to my quiz (tsk tsk tsk), GO DO IT!! LIKE NOW!! HAHAHA!! or if i haven't done ur quiz, tell me! i wanna do! but pls dont disown me if i get zero. LOL!!

and what is this, xanga now has a feature to publish blog entries to fb profiles?? hell would freeze over before i'd do that!

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so, why revised cuti-cuti 2009?

because i failed to make it to Redang, due to some unforseen circumstances.. dont ask more. and so, to compensate....

TAIWAN IN SEPTEMBER BABE!!!!!!

i reallly realllllllllly caaaaaaaaaanttt wait!!!!! that'd be like a belated bday and graduation present to myself.

speaking of holidays, i reallly really realllly wanna do Japan too... like one week after my trip to Taiwan. somewhere in mid of end of october.

SHOULD I SHOULD I????

the last i checked, return air tickets with MAS only cost RM 1405!!! should i go?? even if i'd be going alone.. some told me i should...but some said otherwise.

HAIH.... I wanna travel as much as possible before i start working lar...

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i fcuking need a new set of priorities too!! lets see, i have like...less than one month to complete 4 research papers, one of which is a business proposal, and none of which i have started writing. and looook.. i am here blogging crap!! and dreaming abt japan!!!

this is one big joke. i fcuking wanna graduate lar!!!! i feel so old still being in sch wtf.

ok i reallllly need to start doing some work NOW!!

some pictures coz.. this is my blog.. but where are MY pictures?? lol.

cutest dog everrrr!! and u can tell that i really like doing the peace sign lol.

that's all for now, PEACE OUT!!

Cuti-cuti 2009

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 17:41:30 GMT

Bangkok in January

Beijing in April (in less than 3 weeks woot woot!!)

Redang in May

Hong Kong, Guangzhou and Macau in December.. for TWO WEEKS!!! This is damn siao hahaha!!

but wanna know what's siao-er??

i actually played with the idea of going to Japan this weekend, or latest by next monday for a week hehe.. no thanks to peer pressure wtf and dirt cheap promotional airfares!!!

RM 1600 nett for a return ticket!!! I really wanna go...

that aside, i hope i could visit the UK soon too (tho i'm really not too interested in that country), while i still have close friends there. fcuk in fact i think most of my close friends are there T__T

i wanna go to the US tooooo T____T before my 10 yr visa expires wtf. It's been 5 or 6 yrs since my last visit.

haih................ japan.

ok the end babai.

Drowning...

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 17:48:55 GMT

in an enormous pile of work.

i wish next week could come sooner, but then it'd also mean i'd have lesser time to complete my work and study wtf.

I'M SOOO STRESSED....

why do i have to finish other people's work on their behalf? why must i be such a fussy wussy perfectionist when i dont even know what defines perfection in other's eyes.

i want a chill pill but i couldn't afford one, at least for now.

i want to go clubbing after all this shit! and dance tipsily on the dance floor.

i want to go to bed before 5 am, or maybe 4 am. i dont want to be awaken by chicken crows while i'm trying to sleep seriously WTF.

i want to sleep now but i have soooo much unfinished work.

i wish facebook was less addictive wtf.

i wish i could write within the word limit for my next report, and not exceed it like... one whole fckin time of the limit stated wtf.

i wish someone could help me with my work.

i wish i was less long winded.

the end~

oh, on an unrelated note, if anyone of you actually thought i went out with someone married, and with kids somemore!!? please buy yourself some sense of humour. i aint no drama queen but wasnt that obvious enough an exaggeration? lol. furthermore, married with kids?! do i really have to???

back to stupid work... meh.. -__-

Over random nights of solitary void...

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 16:02:28 GMT

It’s been sometime…

Indeed.

To those who still bother visiting, good for u as ur patience has finally paid off wtf.

As much as I would like to avoid blogging altogether (esp abt my personal well-being), I really cant help but to air my dirty laundry tonite wtf. My emotions are piling, my body is wearying, and my heart is... aching.

In short, imma combust!! I’m in dire need of a channel for these bottled emotions and pent up frustrations!! And no, going to bed and sleeping em off is NOT a solution!

So, what have been keeping me occupied the past few months? You ask.

Studies, work, assignments, exams, studies and more work. You get the drift. -__-

Year 2008 ended just like that without me even realizing it. Festive seasons came and went without allowing me a chance to immerse in the merry atmosphere they brought. Last Christmas eve, I spent the day working, and the night nursing a runny nose. Fast forward a week later, I spent my entire new year’s eve slogging away at work, could have even catch an amazing view of fireworks due to the strategic location of my office if I had spent another hour or so at work wtf. Almost got called back to work on new year's day too WTF, but luckily my colleage went on my bahalf. -___-

Still, I did not regret taking up the job, although I really don’t know if it was worth it to sacrifice so much just for a better looking resume.

Overall, 2008 started and ended pretty well for me. Nothing major happened (or so I'd like to think as I don’t remember anything big affecting me throughout the year), be it positively or negatively. With almost all my close friends being away overseas, I spent most of the entire year leading life alone, which granted me the time needed for self-reflection, self-discovery, personal improvement and whatnots.

In 2008, I thought I found love, but turned out it wasn’t. Just as I thought another ordinary year was about to end, someone significant came into my life under the most unexpected circumstance, and I reckon, that was love :) although forbidden.

Coz he’s married with 2 kids wtf.

Moving on to 2009, the new year started in the best possible way for me than I could have ever imagined :) Bangkok was fantastic!! Then, Chinese New Year came and went by too, and so did Valentine’s. The former was enjoyable, although it could have been alot better if something unpleasant didn’t happen. As for the latter…. Hmmmm, it was a surprising day, in both good and bad ways :)

Sometimes… just sometimes, I really wish I could be less rational and less of an idealist, although deep down, I know I can’t, and won’t want to either. I wish I could just forget about pride and ego, forget about the possible unfavorable outcomes, the million what ifs, and put away the thoughts of lies, betrayals, empty promises… or just anything negative along those lines. Then, maybe, I would be a happier person with you by my side, like how it all used to be.

I know time is what and all I need. It’s not like I have not done it before, I know I am capable of moving on, but as cliché as it may sound, I’m only human, and a vulnerable one at it. It doesn’t help either when almost everything I see, reminds me of you. I see a Benz on the road (hell, why is there so many ppl driving Benz nowadays?!), I think of you, I see someone’s name similar to yours, I think of you (thanks for having such common names, both English and Chinese wtf), when the radio plays nanana, I think of you, when I see pics of your dogs in my song folder, I see YOUR face instead of your dogs’ WTF.

Banana Republic, Bubba Gump, Body Shop, Thomas Pink, Tropicana City, TTDI, Godiva, Mylo and Jade, Hitz fm wtf, bean curd sushi, Watson’s dental floss wtf, Standard Charted wtf, Duck King wtf wtf, Davidoff, LDP, San Fran Steakhouse, iPhone, Clinique, Sylphy, Jaya One, wantan mee, banana split, the songs I used to listen while talking to you, TGV Sunway, diet coke………………… and everything, reminds me of you, just you, ONLY YOU.

I….. really miss you.

Looking back at the pics taken in Bangkok, reminiscing the times brings back heaps of memories as it was then, I realized I was after all, in love. For real. :) There was never a single second I had you off my mind in Bangkok. The ride home from the airport was the best. ride. ever. for me in a very long time. Although I grizzled when you held my hand, but deep down, I secretly wished that moment could last forever, just the two of us, at such close proximity, cherishing each other’s presence.

I miss you, and I want you. Yet, close friends and my conscience tell me I deserve better. The emotional part of me wants to just make up, and forget who’s right and who’s wrong. Yet, my practical and rational mind can’t stop reminding me how you have disappointed me, how you did not even care to explain yourself and worse, how you did not even apologise.

Sometimes I wonder why is my love life so jinxed wtf. The ones I don’t have feelings for, loved me, the ones I loved, all turned their backs on me (as creeeeepy as it may sound, i just realised guys who have somewhat disappointed me all share the same first letter for their names, both first and last names WTF). I just hope this isn’t karma wtf. And I sure hope I could still trust the male species, as hard as it may seem.

As of writing this paragraph, I’ve again, re-learned the art of moving on. Of course, once in a while, when I see or hear something familiar, and especially during quiet nights like these… the memories still linger, not in an agonizing way, but in a happy, yet sappy manner. :)

Ahhhhhhhhhh…. All is the past. :)

Tomorrow will be a good day. Next month will be a good month. 2009 will be a good year, I sincerely hope. :)

130309 1724, staring blankly at my screen, looking at your new display pic on msn... I'm still thinking of you.Where was the picture taken? Who took it? What are you doing now? What will you be doing later? I can only wonder...

Fortune cookies and me

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 16:47:37 GMT

"A new year, a new hope."

"For every minute spent being angry at someone, you lose 60 seconds on happiness."

"Your emotional nature is strong and sensitive."

"Your frankness and outspoken manner are carried through to all friendships and love attachments."

"A hug is a great gift... one size fits all."

I was never one to believe in the words of wisdom (for lack of a better description) that comes inside each fortune cookie, but the little pieces of 'advice' i've been getting as of late has been quite.... mind-boggling.

Is it really possible to be thaatt coincident??? Please dont let this be a deja vu or something.. -__-

Meanwhile, fortune cookies anyone? :)

戻りたいなぁ...

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 17:04:52 GMT

words just cant describe how much i miss japan....